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30 September 2010 @ 04:58 pm
Last night I posted about finding a really great deal for great laptop and almost immediately after i posted that entry, I received an email from Dell. There was a verification issue and I had 24 hours to contact them or my order would be canceled. I called back immediately but since the email was sent at 10:01pm and they close at 10, I had to wait until this morning.

Only the verification department has been closed all day. It's just the same recording to call back in an hour. Six hours I've been calling other departments so I can talk to an actual person. Three departments, 5 associates, and 2 managers later the best they can tell me is that my order has to be authorized and I should get a call back on Tuesday at the latest. I'm a little confused as to what they need to authorize. I'm paying for it outright and they certainly didn't have a problem running the card since it hit my bank account almost immediately.

I'm so frustrated. All I wanted was a new computer. One that works the way it's supposed to. Now I have to work the wait 5 whole days just to find out if I'm getting my laptop or if I'm going to have to wait another 3 - 5 business days to get my money back.
29 September 2010 @ 09:47 pm
I'm getting a new computer! I'm getting a new computer! I'm getting a new computer!

You can't tell because this is typed but I'm totally singing that right now. Though my glee and enthusiasm should be blindingly obvious. It's so overdue. My lappytop has been falling apart for some time. I mean the case is wrecked and worn. The volume buttons don't work. The battery is new but the jack where the cord plugs in is shot so it doesn't hold a charge. I have to have it plugged in all the time. Plus, the screen randomly goes dark. I think it's the motherboard. It still works hooked up to an external monitor (which I'm using right now) but the cord has to be tilted up or everything on the screen is pink.

So I've been saving for months, squirelling away what little money I had left after bills and keeping an eye out for really good laptop deals. I thought I had it when Walmart had a back to school deal for a laptop, printer, thumb drive, and case for 3-something but by the time I had the money the price had gone up to $400. Then Sallie Mae threw me a curve ball and I had to pay $300 nearly wiping out my computer funds.

Well, this was the paycheck that I finally had the money again to start looking and Dell came to my rescue. The refurbished Inspiron M501R in peacock blue was originally 4-something but they also had a coupon for 25% off an inspiron and BAM! I got a laptop with a webcam, 8X DVD +/- RW Drive, 3 GB DDR3 SDRAM 1333MHz (2 DIMMs), 64BIT Operating System, 320 GB SATA Hard Drive (5400 RPM), Microsoft Works 9.0, the same size screen as my old laptop, 6 Cell Primary Battery, AND Windows 7 for only $299! I feel like I won the lottery! Not only will I be getting my new computer Monday or Tuesday of next week with my free shipping but I paid almost $200 less then what I saved.

I am a very happy Nikki right now.
20 September 2010 @ 10:09 am
I found my journal pages from when I was on the road after my break up with Larry. I was doing my fangirl thing over Anderson Cooper and got inspired for a little comic strip. My alarm went off upstairs so while I was shutting that off I searched for some paper and found the journal. I shouldn't have read it. I should have put it back and covered it up and found the paper I wanted but I didn't.

Of course, I didn't. I read the damn thing, cried like a baby, and now I feel like shit. Plus, I have a runny nose. Why on earth would I want to be reminded of the worst heartbreak I've ever experienced? I have to be some kind of masochist or maybe I'm just stupidly optimistic that I was really over everything. I mean I'm not without my other prospects. I've been talking to a couple different guys. Granted, one is out for sex and the other isn't even drinking age yet but I'm a sucker for attention and I'm getting it in spades. However, no amount of sexual attraction or infatuation can compete with feeling loved. Larry loved me. Maybe not as much as I loved him but I know he did.

Now that I'm so vividly reminded of that I don't even think I can enjoy my other flirtations anymore. It feels shallow and lacking. I wish I hadn't read those stupid journal pages. I should have left well enough alone.
Current Mood: blahblah
23 August 2010 @ 07:55 pm
Current Mood: amusedamused
18 August 2010 @ 10:16 am
I've been thinking a lot about the kind of person I want to be. I want to be healthier. I want to stress less. I want to be a better friend and a better daughter, sister, niece, and granddaughter. I want to love more. I want to be more positive, more uplifting. I want to inspire and be inspired.

I think most of us want these things. I can't speak for everyone else but for me I know that when my efforts fall short it's never one big thing I can point to. It's a hundred times I looked the other way when I should have spoken up. Its the jokes I shouldn't have laughed at or even said myself. It's the people I continued to associate with even when I knew what they were doing was wrong. And for what? A story? A game? A hobby I told myself a long time ago was never worth hurting someone over?

There are too many wonderful people on Livejournal I love, to play with someone I feel guilty for even being associated with.
Current Mood: determineddetermined
14 August 2010 @ 07:27 am
I had a dream today, just now actually, that cameoed a ton of people I used to know and hang out with. Some I haven't talked to in 5, 7, even 10 years and it made me wake up with an ache in my heart. I miss them. I miss all my friends at AiW. I miss everyone I went to London with. I miss my AiCH friends and everyone I knew at Flo Valley.

Maybe I just miss college. I didn't want to tap out the way I did. I really tried to finish even with everything stacked against me. It killed me to quit. The fact that I was only a few classes from grad made it worse.I know there were things I could have done differently but I don't know if it would have changed anything. I could have quit school when I first started getting sick before all of the appeals and my grades began to tank. Of course, I didn't know for 2 years that my gallbladder was dying. I thought it was something I could take a pill for. The doctors told me it was a pinched nerve in my spine, then IBS, then an ulcer, then back to IBS.

I haven't been in a rush to go back but I think that's what all the signs are. I need to find a way to go back. I need to finish. Thankfully, I think I'm on the right path. I've been looking into it and Wal-Mart has programs and scholarships available to help people go back to school. I'm not sure how I could convince the board that I deserve their help but I feel like I have to try.
Current Mood: determineddetermined
Lift Thy Voices In Praise: Thou shalt encourage each other and give support to those who are on the holy journal of the muse with you. Thou shalt not flame, but rather, thou shalt give friendly and constructive criticism to all you read. Thou shalt not call thy brothers and sisters terrible names, such as Mary or Sue. Rather, thou shalt shut thy fucking trap unless thou has something to say that is kind or helpful. For thou must remember that thou sometimes sucketh donkey balls thyself, and being a canon character is no protection from sucking. Thou shalt step forward, and defend a brother or sister under fire, when thou sees a mean spirit lighting a flame against another. And when thy diarrhea mouth writeth a check that thy constipated ass cannot cash, thou shalt apologize as publicly as thou did flame, for humility is good for the soul, as well as a laugh.

Thou Shalt NOT Clique: Thou shalt not RP with one or two best friends, creating characters just to play with each other, and exclude other players. Thou shalt broaden thy base, and welcome new players, for they will bring depth and variety to thy game. Thou shalt not just use them to liven up your dull game and then dump them. Thou shalt build relationships and bridges between muses, muns and fandoms.

Thou Shalt Not Make Others Choose Sides: Thou doth sucketh as a player and as a human when thou puts other muns or muses in the middle of your fights. Handle your own shit, in private, and let other players play.

This segues into...

Thou Shalt Separate Muse From Mun: If you hate the pup, don't take it out on the mun. If you hate the mun, don't flame the pup. Just shut the fuck up. I don't care if so and so stole your lame ass icon, or someone stole your pup's boyfriend. If all you have to fight about is what a fictional character did to a fictional character, then you are a whangsty asshat, and deserve to have your DSL and your human race card pulled for a period of time until you get a grip.

Thou Shalt Play, Or Tell Others Why You Can't: Don't leave other players hanging. Don't start storylines and not follow through. If life happens, tell people, let them know what's happening. Don't just disappear. Don't entereth into a heavy plot or story, and just slack off. Finish what you start, even if the feeling is gone.


((For the record, I did not write these. They were done by lovely women named Manda and Jacki in 2005.))
Current Location: Common Sense Town
Current Mood: amusedamused
20 July 2010 @ 07:09 pm
Pounds lost? 21

Pants sizes down? 1

Cycling 6 miles/day in NC 101 degree weather only to come home strip naked and lay under the fan until I don't feel like throwing up? Priceless.
Current Mood: hothot
06 July 2010 @ 03:24 am
I'm feeling very hopeful tonight even though I've been tearing up without warning.

Tonight my brother-in-law came home with the 1/6 from Afghanistan. It was an incredibly emotional watching all those Marines return to the loving arms of their loved ones after 7 months. There were a lot of tears, a lot of cheering, and a lot of sighs of relief. Prayers were answered. They got home safe and all the little petty arguments, worries over finances or uncertainty of the future melted away if only for a few magnificent hours.

I felt very blessed to be part of this experience because even though it wasn't my husband coming home, I was left with a certain amount of clarity. My priorities were set straight at least for the time being.

Welcome home soldiers and thank you for all you do. <3
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
06 July 2010 @ 03:03 am

Your Spiritual Number is Seven

You bring knowledge and wisdom into people's lives.

You are an expert in many fields, and you give excellent advice.

Right now, your life is about perfecting your skill set.

You are almost a virtuoso at the thing you love best. With some practice, you'll get there.

You are highly intelligent and intellectual. You have profound analytical skills.

But you also have the soul of an artist. You long to create.

I never really thought of myself as particularly empathetic but I've been hearing it a lot lately.
Current Mood: awakeawake